‘I have made awful decisions’ Diana Marua reveals how she got over her past

Bahati’s fiancée, Diana Marua has today shared with her fans on how she got over her past mistakes.

Diana Marua In a long post says that in the past, she made awful decisions and some took her years to come to terms with.

She also revealed that at some point she allowed those decisions to tell her who she was and defining her self worth.

In her deep reflection, Diana Marua says that she lowered her standards and started accepting anything.

Bahati’s fiancée also says that she thought by accepting anything and everything as it was, it meant that she had healed. However it is something came to haunt her later.

In the worrying post, Diana does not reveal any of the things that she had been through although from her description she clearly went through a rough path.

After a lone connection with God, Diana Marua says that she had to let go of all the guilt and disappointment.

Diana says that eventually she forgave herself after the longtime battle and judging from the blessings that God has showered her with, she believes that she is forgiven of God too.

She urges everyone who is going through a similar situation of dealing with a burden from the past to forgive themselves and be what God destined them to be.

Her message comes as part of her reflections on International Women’s Day Celebration.

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"To the girl I was then, I Forgive You!" We so easily forgive others or ask others for forgiveness, but we forget to forgive ourselves. Instead, we hold on to the guilt and shame; allowing those moments to playback until they fester into insecurities. Perhaps it's just my story… well, let me speak for myself. I have made awful decisions and some took me years to come to terms with. I allowed those decisions to tell me who I was, defining my self worth. In doing so, I lowered my standards and accepted anything, which created insecurities that were never mine to possess. As time passed, I began to grow through life. I thought because I had accepted everything for what it was, that I had healed. Until one night God got me ALL the way together. As I was having my own quiet time, I began to reflect on my life, the far I've come, all the things I've gone through. As I was reflecting through, I began to breakdown and cry…. more like screamed, I even got breathless. No one could hear me but God. Then in that Still voice, I heard LET IT GO! The disappointments and the guilt. I had prayed and asked God for forgiveness plenty of times in the past, but God was telling me I didn't Truly believe I was Forgiven. I had not forgiven myself. I started to meditate on all of my recent blessings and I came to the realization that if God, the creator of all things can forgive me, surely, the least I can do is to also forgive myself. So I did, I let go and I didn't look back, Ever! God had to get me by myself so I could deal with myself. Sometimes, old things just can't go where you're going. If your story is somewhat like mine, I'm here to tell you, Forgive the old you so you can walk Boldly into the woman God created you to be. #HappyInternationalWomensDay Queen! 💓

A post shared by Signora Bahati ❤ (@diana_marua) on Mar 8, 2019 at 2:12am PST