Sad! Why P. Diddy claims to have played himself

We have made a decision we regret, especially when we lose a loved one. Times we wish we would turn back time, but it’s not usually the case. The former girlfriend of the rapper Sean Combs passed away last year after suffering from lobar pneumonia, and in an Instagram interaction of Monday (04.03.19), the 49-year-old music mogul admitted he wishes he could have tied the knot with her whilst they were still together.

The 47-year-old model, actress and the mother to Diddy’s kids Kim Porter was found unresponsive at her home on Thursday 15th November 2018, where she was pronounced dead. Days later, Combs invited many of their friends including Jay Z, Queen Latifah, Alicia Keys, Mary J. Blige, and Chris Rock, to his Beverly Hills abode for a celebration in Kim’s honor after declaring he was living a “nightmare” after receiving news of her sudden demise.

Posting an old picture of himself cuddling with Kim who was the mother of three of his children, Christian, 20, and 12-year-old twins D’Lila Star and Jessie James Diddy simply wrote “SMH”, which stands for “shaking my head, alongside a broken heart emoji. And when one fan pointed out that he “didn’t want to marry” Kim “when she was alive”, Diddy revealed he regretted the choice. He replied: “I know. Played myself smh”

The ‘I’ll Be Missing You’ hitmaker who also raises Kim’s 27-year-old son Quincy, and his two children from other relationships, Justin, 24, and Chance, 12 suffered heartbreak after Kim’s passing, and recently thanked his family for helping him through “a state of deep depression” following the news. Posting a picture on social media of his mother with D’Lila Star and Jessie James reveals he is struggling with coming to terms with the death of his longtime girlfriend Porter.