Njeri Gachomba an actress in the local show Real House helps of Kawangware has opened up on her battle with depression since she was 15.
Njambi is loved for her witty character, but not many know that behind that beautiful smile and infectious laughter is a woman fighting to find her bearing.
Taking to Instagram, Njambi shared a photo of her on a day when she lost every thing she called hers.
“I remember when I took this photo, this was the day I lost everything I’ve ever worked for …. I had sat on the stairs as they took everything from my house.
My mum was so stressed and my brother @kenyan_twist as usual was cheering me up.
I remember he was telling me about how I was used to having my own bathroom in my bedroom sasa na Rudi kutumia choo na kila mtu 🤣🤣(my brother though).
I felt like my life was ending I mean I just got up now am being put down again. I remember Tam came back from school and she was shocked, “haukuniambia tunahama” she said.
She was asking where our things are especially her toys 😂😂😂 typical….. “
Njambi goes on to open up about how she has battled with depression
“Anyway, It wasn’t supposed to be a long post but anyways since am half way……
Can I just say something about depression and how sad it is that young people are ending their lives because of love, money and jobs.
I tell people life is never that serious, you loose some you gain some ..
I’ve been depressed since I was 15yrs I had family drama, I had self esteem, I felt unloved, unwanted, I felt like I meant nothing to anyone.
I’ve tried it all taking pills, countless times I’ve tried to commit suicide, I’ve wanted to jump off my balcony a million times.
I’ve scars coz I used to cut myself…. But every time I try shit, there comes Tamara complaining about something I said I’ll do and I didn’t.”
She goes on to add
“If you ever feel depressed and you feel like you want to end your life please find a purpose, every one has a purpose for living.
I think the reason am still alive am still surviving is because of someone somewhere who is going through a lot and has no one to talk to, my DM is always open.
I understand, I know how it feels to be worthless, to have self esteem, to feel unloved I know… I am where you’re…. I get tattoos or piercings just to numb my pain…
I don’t know why I find pleasure and comfort in pain….. And to friends please check up on your person. We depressed people don’t know how to talk, how to talk about our problems .
We might look alright but deep down we’re dying. I know I smile alot, I joke alot but when I am alone, I am empty. Plus, depression is making me so fat 🙊🙊”